Someone Save Me!

The stress has consumed me.

The Step-back:
Holiday weekend was great. I did a long run of 16 miles with a few friends and it felt great. I did not run on Sat,Sun,Mon. I did cross-train in the form of Long-boarding all through Newark for several hours. Man did that kill my shins and calves. But I had a truly fantastic relaxing weekend.  See below:

The Set-Back:

In my heart and in my training I feel as though I have not even come close to where I need to be. The stress at work and at home and in my personal life post the weekend has come to a raging point. I am just sick and tired of friends and good upstanding people getting taken advantage of. Its completely unfathomable(not sure if that's a word) to me that someone would want to make someone feel in a way that is terrible. What inside the hearts of leaders and individuals these days takes joy in the destruction of others. Anyway end of Rant. I am constantly reminded of a few scriptures >  

Proverbs 18:21(ESV)
21 Death and life are in the power of the tongue,
and those who love it will eat its fruits.

 Romans 12:21(NIV)
21 Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

The Forward Momentum:
  Yesterday I went home and took all my aggression out on the Trails. I literally would not let myself stop running until my body collapsed. Has anyone ever felt this with there "outlet"? I was excited when I returned utterly exhausted, only to find I had finally dropped my first 9:01mile inside trails that are reasonable hilly and rocky. It took that little glimmer of hope, that small flame and ignited it. It sent endorphins rushing through every capillary of my body. I was alive again. The self-absorbed zombie ME ME ME attitude was broken. My spirit laughed and smirked, because it already knew that I was/am MORE THAN A CONQUEROR.

The Finale:
The day ended and started up another challenging one with even more things. This time I stopped it dead in its tracks and was reminded with one quote that rang so true in my heart. The truth is that stress doesn't come from your boss, your kids, your spouse, traffic jams, health challenges, or other circumstances. It comes from your thoughts about these circumstances. - Andrew Bernstein

 No funny stories today, but I hope hearing my thoughts and struggles and Victories can provide some relief for you today! Your not alone! Make the choice to silence the voice. 

Ryan